Tuesday, December 12, 2006

AHHHHHH

So overwhelmed lately!! Here is where I sit. I am registered for classes at CBC. I'm all pumped and excited for Bible College and my classes as well as seeing more of my two best friends (one of them is you Nicole). However, feel this deep sadness and loss for my art and for everything that I have worked for over the last 5 years. My dilemma, I am tired of wasting time, I want school done with so that I can move out, travel, have a life outside if the 8 dollars an hour restriction that I find myself. I don't know what to do. My heart longs to learn about my creator and the book that is left for us to find comfort and guidance in, but I also long for my art, my dreams of seeing my stuff in a gallery one day. Niether of these can be ignored. CBC, although it is a great institution, will never be able to give me an accredited degree and i will have to take out student loans and be massively in debt by the time that I am 25. My art path will give me a career, a job and at half the cost, as well as the opportunity to travel and do more schooling.
HELP!!!! God is being so silent!!
AHHHHHHHHH.......

1 comment:

Nicole Elisabeth said...

I will be praying for you... for sure!!! That God will lead you in your decisions and bring you to a conclusion that follows in line with what he has planned for you and your life!

love ya! :)