One of the things that I have been struggling alot with is who I am and who everyone who surround me is. In school we have been talking alot about religion and God. It has caused alot of self-reflection. Am I who I am because of what I believe, or do I believe what I believe because of who I am. I am not sure. At present I am writing a paper on whether or not religion is poisonous and counter-productive. The answer, I don't know. The problem with religion is that it is full of humans. Complex, paradoxical, confused and unpredictible humans.
In truth, as I look around I must confess that some of my "religious" friends disappoint me. They are tranparent, self-seeking and too wrapped up in their own joys or sorrows to even notice those around them. I can't tell you how often I have been asked for advice and have tried to point them to the world and our role within it, only to be severed from all connection and to be excluded from that point on. Am I wrong in doing this?
However, I have been met with a refreshing breeze that is a person who sees beyond themselves and into the hearts of others and can dream with me of a better world and how to get there.
I want so bad to write a paper upholding the joys and importance of religion and all of the wonderful things that it can bring to a person's life and to a society, but I don't know if I can be truthful about it when I am screaming at the top of my lungs "Stop this selfishness! Stop this pretence."
Maybe I need to just be good that belief and religion can be and hope that others follow....
Thoughts??
