New year's eve!!

Me Blonde!!!!

well, good morning and merry christmas. I just want to share that God is good--I can't begin to tell you why, or how, or if I even really truly comprehend this statement. All that I know is He is. Really. If you search you will find it to be true...
That is all.

Plans for January

Well, it's official. I am registered at UCFV for the winter semester. After really struggling with this and feeling lost and confused I have made up my mind. I'm sorry if I have let you down by not attending CBC, but I really feel in my heart that UCFV is where I am supposed to be. The thing is that I was hiding and fear was what was holding me back. I was afraid of my art and my ability to create it. You see, I have been living in constant fear of failing, as a person, failing my friends and failing my God. Life is too short to live in fear and hide. God keeps calling me ato a purpose larger than myself and it is selfish to do my own thing even when it is under the guise of Bible College. I felt like I had to follow my friends to keep them and remain accepted by them. But I know better than that, I know that isn't true. I need to glorify God and I'm not if i'm squandering talent and prentending to be happy. Sorry about the whirlwind...it has been an emotional roller coaster for me too. But now I'm settled, still scared but settled. I think that life will be good.

AHHHHHH

So overwhelmed lately!! Here is where I sit. I am registered for classes at CBC. I'm all pumped and excited for Bible College and my classes as well as seeing more of my two best friends (one of them is you Nicole). However, feel this deep sadness and loss for my art and for everything that I have worked for over the last 5 years. My dilemma, I am tired of wasting time, I want school done with so that I can move out, travel, have a life outside if the 8 dollars an hour restriction that I find myself. I don't know what to do. My heart longs to learn about my creator and the book that is left for us to find comfort and guidance in, but I also long for my art, my dreams of seeing my stuff in a gallery one day. Niether of these can be ignored. CBC, although it is a great institution, will never be able to give me an accredited degree and i will have to take out student loans and be massively in debt by the time that I am 25. My art path will give me a career, a job and at half the cost, as well as the opportunity to travel and do more schooling.
HELP!!!! God is being so silent!!
AHHHHHHHHH.......