Caterpillar

"What is death to the caterpillar is a butterfly to the master"
Ponder that for a moment...
Okay, now that you are done pondering, guess where I heard that quote...
Yup, you guessed right--it was at a photography conference. I was recently going through some old journals of mine and poof there it was....big as pie. I heard that quote when I was in a place of searching for God and all my efforts were futile. For some reason it stuck though, and for some reason I never associated it with photography but with God.
It really seems to apply in my life right now and I have started to ponder the idea myself. As you may know, I have deviated from the plans that I had set out for myself. I seem to have come across something better, God's plan. As hard as it is for myself to lay down my plans and follow into the unknown and as hard as it is for those around me to see me give up something that I have worked so hard to achieve, I know that something much better lies ahead.
It is a death--- a death of my expectations, my parents' dreams, the world's hope for me to get rich and live well. But as a Christian I should be willing to deny myself for God right?? Let's ponder deny...okay...definition--to refuse to recognize or acknowledge; disown; disavow; repudiate. I like that. This summer I have layed down my life, my worldly self has died to the desire of my King. My life is no onger my own. Please rise and have a moment of silence out of respect for the caterpillar within me who can only cling to the dirt on the ground looking at the sky hoping to soar...she is dead. I have been immerged from my coccoon ready to soar. My life will never be the same. Instead of spindly little legs I have been given wings. Great big beautiful wings, full of color and hope. Wings that carry me wherever the wind blows. I suddenly have a new perspective. Things of this world seem so small, so insignificant. My new world is so much bigger, so much brighter and so much more in tune with God. He is the wind that guides me and I have every faith that what I am doing is His will. He has humbled me and alone deserves the glory for anything good that can come from me. It is in His arms I rest and in Him that I trust.

**God you know what you are doing..Help me trust that. Keep me humble so that I can hear your voice. Remain faithful and true and allow me to honor you in all that I do. Your ways are much higher than mine and your plans are far, far greater. Thank you for this freedom and thank you for these wings. You truly are a great God. You are my heart's desire. I love you. And in you alone am I satisfied. Mould me and make me. I am at your feet.**